Silence.

I Don't really want to talk about today. But I will...

Today was a lesson on why you shouldn't trust someone just because they say things. I'm bad at that. I like to think everyone is Honest and Noble. Maybe I just read too many books where everything is perfect. It might be that this was an awful joke played on me. I hope so, because the alternative is that one of my best friends has been lying to me for months. The worst part is either way, I'm still going to care about him and miss him. Things like this make me feel physically sick, My stomach gets all tight, then turns to water. Now I'm going over all the things I could have done to prevent this. Was it because of me? Why didn't I see it coming? Why didn't I listen when other people warned me to be careful? How do I make sure it Never happens again?

I'll keep this blog up, but my will to do anything is kind of crushed, sorry.